Another two short runs, one on Friday before going to work, pretty much just to wake up and to burn up all the energy left for the week already in the early morning hours
The second one on Saturday evening, I was a bit tired, but anyways felt like running so I put on my yellow Nike Lunarglides and hit the road. I decided to test the pace a bit and set myself to run under 5min/km, which is also my goal for the half-marathon in October.
Its still a long way there, since I was pretty knackered after only 5km with this pace and I need to run 4x more (or, put into perspective, like 10x more). But I feel confident, I fell in love with running again and it’s still 77 days to go!
After my body landed in Slovenia last Tuesday, it seems that my mind has finally caught up today. Its actually surprisingly good to be back, but on the other hand, I was also reminded that I’m home because of some less positive things.
But first thing first, I completed a 7km run today just before the day ended:
Nothing too special, but slowly getting back into shape
It’s time to replace the smell of London streets and taste of Fish and Chips with the smell of grassy fields and the taste of sweat! The Ljubljana half-marathon is still almost three months away, but it’s pretty much the last time to start preparing if I want to improve my last year’s result. Today’s run is nothing special, but I am slowly regaining my form. Running here at home is really nice, sounds and smells of nature all around you, sun setting behind forests and hills.
I love running because it clears your mind and you really have time to think. Its just you, stubborn asphalt under your feet and your thoughts. While running today, I decided to immediately change two things in my life:
1. Start writing again
I consider myself a fairly good writer. Not a fiction writer, more like putting-real-life-things-into-words writer. I’ve been writing a personal blog in the past, but at one point just lost interest and let it decay. I also translated an official publication from Slovenian to English, wrote probably first-ever Slovenian poker school and contributed tons of marketing content in my current work, so I would say I know my way around words. So, more writing in the future, starting with this blog.
2. Stop pushing thoughts inside me and letting them out instead
Not that I don’t like talking, au contraire, I know I am a sociable and chatty person, but when something is troubling me, I usually get too emotional to properly express it. Firstly, I really don’t like to hurt people and secondly, I really don’t like to complain. So too often I don’t let people know what’s on my mind and rather shrug it off and keep it for myself. Which only results in people getting even more hurt and all the unspoken complaints eating me from inside. Unfortunately, I had to learn this the hard way, but I guess this is one of those things which you clearly know, but something inside you has to click in a certain way to really understand it.
I left Slovenia and went to London in order to learn something new and to invest in my future, but at the same time, I left because some things weren’t right here and I wasn’t happy. When I was in London I was really happy. It was one of the high points of my life, actually. And now when I’m back, certain things made me unhappy again. But this time I am not going to let them f**k with my health (I had post-teen-lowest-ever 69kg in December, now I have solid 78) and personal life, but I’m going to try and change them. And if I can’t, I’m going to walk away from them.
So, let’s wake up tomorrow and start fulfilling these two simple August resolutions. Life is too short and you have to make every day worthwhile. I know its cheesy, but it’s bloody true.